In the past few weeks, there has been a significant increase of Asian hate which has created anxiety and fear. In Orange County, CA there is a large Asian American Community and several attacks have even happened in Orange County. Sometimes we feel we live in a facade of safety and pretend everything is alright. Denial can limit your ability to readily prepare yourself. There is a lingering fear and increased concern in the community. Historically, Asians immigrated to the US to have new opportunities to start a better life for themselves and for their family. Imagine arriving in a country unable to speak English with limited resources. Trying to survive in creating a life in a new country, a new language, and also dealing with hate/ racism is a constant battle. I wonder how often someone has made inappropriate comments towards me and behind my back. Sometimes I choose to maintain naivety to ignore racism because it is so painful and scary to deal with. Now that more Asian hate crime is documented and evident, there are mixed feelings of relief of finally being heard, but also being scared to see how hateful the world can be.